On Friends.

I've found, in the strangest ways, that it's too time consuming and stressing to be the good friend. No one really values you anyway, so why bother? People are always going to take advantage of you because you're officially dubbed 'the good friend'. You know, the type of friend who listens to everyone elses needs, the one who lets others confide in you in hopes you get to confide in them, the one that everyone 'trusts', the one that does the apologizing. You know, the responsible sorts?

Eventually, my fellow good friend, you're going to get fed up. You're going to get sick and tired of people always taking advantage of you. Taking advantage of your friendship because you're the one who'll be the bigger person to apologize. On the note of apologies, if you apologize you may think you're the bigger person [and you probably are] but the person you're seeking 'forgiveness' from won't. Instead, they'll see it as they're the bigger person; they're the winner; they're the right one. They'll see it as if you need them and want to be on okay terms again. Did you actually think that by apologizing even if it wasn't your fault that they're going to see you as an amazing person? No. They never do. People never change, just their lies.

Because man, those friends of yours? They'll run you into the ground. They'll run you until you're too weak to move your bones; until there's no more blood to run. They'll slam you with the meanest words to seem like they're the funny bigger superior friend; the one with the reins on this relationship. They'll break you down into tears- shiny glistening tears that fall down your face like a storm of shooting stars. And will hey apologize? No. They're the bigger ones. They're waiting for you to apologize.

And then one day, enough will finally be enough. And you'll snap back. You'll be flustered with anger that your words will run into each other. You'll be so flustered that your words won't be words. They'll animalistic sounds. They'll reflect the pent frustration and anger that have been encased in your body. It will all come out so quickly and it won't make any sense that they'll look at you flabberghasted... and laugh. And laugh some more. And they'll keep on laughing until finally... they get angry. They'll pounce on you like ravenous monsters, eating you limb from limb. They'll rip apart your torso and stab you to ribbons. They're words will be so fierce and hit you so hard you'd think they were shooting you with a gun.

These, are your friends?

You don't need those kind of friends. No matter what type of relationship. If you're always going to be the one giving and giving and giving... You'll eventually get tired of it. Because, what happens when you've got nothing left to give? Well obviously, you're going to stop giving. And the best time to do that is when you realize that you're back at square one. Apologizing.